Make More Mistakes

#010: I don’t practise self-discipline, even though I know it helps

I recognise that having a schedule is good for me - it keeps me organised, focused and I feel much more comfortable & secure knowing I have a plan in place than when everything’s open ended. I accept this. I knew this in the latter years of secondary school and throughout university - as I knew I loved being part of an institution - but I didn’t accept it.

Now that I do accept it, I find myself frequently rebelling against it. I tell myself that I like drifting aimlessly and, on some level, I do. Overall, however, I much prefer structure and I definitely prefer the increased productivity.

Ironically, the reason this post is so short is precisely because I left expanding it to the last minute, a result of not sticking to my writing schedule.

Aagh! When will I learn? It’s difficult, because I don’t even know why I’m so resistant to having an explicit timetable.

Learning from my mistakes

I know that making publuc commitments helps me to be more disciplined & organised. To that end (and in recompense), next week Tuesday, there’ll be an extra special edition post: My review of Elayne Savage’s book, ‘Don’t Take It Personally! The Art of Dealing with Rejection’, which I started reading this week. So, keep an eye out for it.